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  1. Kelly W says:

    my heart aches for you


  2. alena says:

    thank you lucie for this beautiful and poignant blog. it helped us to feel closer to laura, we checked it every day. laura is finally free. with love, alena, todd, gracie, and ned


  3. Paul Pilch says:

    My condolences to you Lucy, Kerry and Laura’s family.
    Have a safe journey Laura. I love you and I’ll miss you my dear friend.
    Thank you for everything


    1. Kerry says:

      Thank you sweet Pawel(Paul). Sending love to you. -Kerry


  4. Carol Nolan says:

    Sleep with the Angels ~ My candle is still burning for you. Lucie…you are truly a gift in the way you handled Laura’s Recovery. Your love together gave everyone that has followed this blog from the beginning a new meaning to a “Love Story”. Thank you for keeping all of us that care and live far away, a part of your journey ~ Love Carol ~


  5. rbarnes36 says:

    May she rest in peace.

    “Into your hands Immortal One, we commend Laura. Of your infinite goodness, wisdom, and power, work in her the wonderful purpose of your perfect will, for your mercies’ sake. Amen.”


  6. Marilyn says:

    I have not seen a greater love or love of life than both of you have lived and shown. That spirit will be in my heart forever.


  7. Lisa Silvestri says:

    Lucie. I love you and am here to help you in any way I possibly can. I will always love Laura and will always be thankful for her friendship. Lisa


  8. Nicki Saporta says:

    Goodbye my dear, dear friend. You handled your illness like you lived your life, with courage and grace. I will miss you til we meet again.


  9. John says:

    The flame from the candle I lit last night has gone out.
    The flame in my heart for Laura continues to glow.



  10. J Meslin says:

    Lucie, I am so sorry to hear of Laura’s passing. I will miss her. Please let me know if there is anything I can do. You’ve been an angel. With love and affection, Joan


  11. Stephen Moore says:

    May I say,
    Laura has touched many people in a way that illuminated her heart and good will. She was able to finally meet the love of her life she longed for and pursue her passions. She always welcomed my dog Rogan and I for many years on our regular trips to Joes coffee. She captured images that touch my soul and offer memories I will cherish. It’s interesting when I think;
    it was at the times I needed an objective ear to listen, she happened to appear and asked the right questions.

    Another who knows her,
    replied to me so accurately
    when hearing of her passing;;;;

    “You really don’t come across that many 100% sweet people in life.”


  12. katy keck says:

    Lucie, Thank you for your courage and poignant and beautiful words. Your love story is one of the ages and sharing it at this time has been a real gift. I’m glad I got to be on the journey through your eyes and ears. With deepest sympathy, Katy


  13. Bianca Lanza says:

    So terribly sad for all of us. Lucie, you have been incredible through all of this and I hope you know you are surrounded with the love of Laura’s friends. Whatever you need, please don’t hesitate to ask. I think it’s important for us all to stay connected and keep Laura with us. Lots of love Lucie.


  14. Kathleen Blake says:

    God Bless her and God Bless you Lucie. I am sad but I know that Laura is free of pain and her Soul is flying free and you will see each other again. Thank you for this blog. Kathleen


  15. Steve Brown says:

    As I only just found out when coming to work this morning, I am overwhelmed with sadness and “disbelief” at the moment.

    Looking beyond all of that, I want to thank Laura for being like a sister to me, for teaching me how to laugh a little more, especially at myself (what a sense of humor!), for seeing and bringing out the best in all of us and whoever she encountered and most of all, for simply being her lovable, irrascible, remarkable self.

    Laura confided to me over this past year how surprised she was that so many people seemed to care for her. Gratefully, she grew to the point where she realized it was all true, that she really was loved that much! This is a special gift that she received and she gave it all back to us too.

    Lucie…..thank you for keeping us all connected and for your loving devotion. You’ve inspired all of us and you’re wonderful! Be in peace knowing you’ve given your all.



  16. Michele says:

    Lucie, I never met you, but I knew Laura a long time. From all the entries I read, I thought these two songs might express and honor your loving journey together and now the one beyond. Music is a good healer.

    When a good friend passed a few years ago, there was an immediate release in me, of course, the sorrow came back, but for a bit of time there was a sense if fulfillment of purpose and a peace. I wish that for you.

    love, Michele

    Jane Siberry- Calling all Angels

    and this odd cover of another Judy Collins song, ‘Since You’ve Asked’ by Tom Wopat, the words are so lovely.

    I was up all night, I listened to every version of this song,(there are many) including an a cappella one, but this one got to me, with it’s 60’s/70’s’s style arrangement (although recorded in 2013) and the singer’s phrasing.


    1. Michele says:

      OMG,I thought I was just posting the link to the song(s) and not the whole youtube page with ads and I don’t see an option to redo my post! Although, Laura might have found it funny if the Poo Pourri ad came on before the song?
      My apologies.


  17. jake (aka heather) says:

    The candle burned brightly throughout the night and was out when I woke this morning. I send my love to you all.


  18. My condolences to you Lucie and Laura’s friend Kerry and to Laura’s family. What an honor to have witnesses Laura’s spirit as it transitioned into the spirit realm. Blessings to you.


  19. Leigh says:

    Godspeed, lovely Laura. How we will miss you, friend – that smile, that laugh, and your heart.

    Lucie, from the moment Laura met you she was smitten, and no wonder. Laura couldn’t have had a better partner or love through this journey – you were her angel on earth. Our hearts are with you, although so, so heavy.
    – Leigh and Regina


  20. Arianna says:

    5 years ago when I met Laura, instantly there was an air of intimacy and generosity that was exchanged between us and since then on, I felt Laura to be an ancient friend, known through many lives. Our inappropriate commentary on the characters around us sitting in a cafe, with West Village as a perfect backdrop, was always based in love and mischievousness: we had dozens of secret nicknames, inside jokes and subtle facial expressions that always made us laugh and continue in our secret, satirical sisterhood.

    My sheepdog Yves was her “husband”, my spasmodic relationship was an outlet for Laura’s nurturing kindness, and the ease and comfort that I felt around her, to this day, I only felt rarely.

    The memory with Laura I will never forget is on a perfect spring day in our beloved Village, as we set out to shoot photographs of my sheepdog Yves, “her husband, before he grew up” as she put it. The day was hilarious and wherever we went we made a scene, because she kept wanting me to carry a giant 50 pound hairy beast in my arms like a baby. The photographs from that day I will forever cherish (here’s one of Laura’s photos from that day).

    Laura, to me, will always be an exuberant breeze dashing behind the corner on Gay street, in a mad rush, on her way somewhere she had to so urgently be, back from a recent exotic adventure filled trip, vulnerable, funny, shy, loving and wanting to be loved. When she found her Lucy, she would tell me in a hush, confiding, playful tone “I’m so in trouble, I lover her so much.”


    1. John says:

      The picture is absolutely precious!
      Thanks for sharing!


  21. jillie says:

    Oh Lucie i am beyond sad to hear that your Laura is gone. The love you and Laura shared was beautiful and extraordinary . It is a comfort to know she had your love and and your unbelievable care to see her thru her illness and were there to help her move on surrounded with nothing but that love

    As for the rest of us our Laura`s light, love, cheerfulness has left us with a huge space that cannot be filled in this physical world but will live on in our hearts and minds and memories that we share.

    We were all so lucky to have know her

    All I can see now is her beautiful smiling face

    I send my love to you and her family.



  22. Fatima says:

    Lucie, I hug you tightly – I am so sorry for your loss. May you feel Laura’s hand to hold you, her kisses to wipe your tears, and know you are not alone. What a blessing and destiny that you found each other and I know your love reaches beyond this lifetime. May Laura reach her home full of light and without pain. We are here for you any time to make sure you smile your beautiful smile.

    And of course, Lucie: the Warriors do not stop here. Let us know how we can further be there for you, help you, organize anything, etc.


  23. Marian heller says:

    dear Lucie, my heart aches and goes out to you utterly. I don’t know what to say, moved to tears by the beauty of all these words, and feeling such sadness, and relief that Laura is free of pain now. It is a balm to think of her ‘pinging the angel’s brastraps.’

    I agree with everything everybody has shared, especially that Lucie, you have been her angel here, and I am awestruck and deeply touched by the beauty and perfection of your love. It gave me chills to read about seeing the illuminations as she moved away from the physical world. Her spirit won’t always be so visible, but I know that she will always be here with you.

    Though we’ve only met once, please call ANYTIME — I would be so happy to go for a walk, or help in any way possible.


  24. Fatima says:

    This is a poem that was printed on the back of the card when a dear friend and fellow musician passed this summer. I would like to share this with all of us who love Laura so much:

    “To Those I Love And Those Who Love Me ”

    When I am gone, release me. Let me go
    I have so many things to see and do.
    You mustn’t tie yourself to me with tears, Be
    happy, we had so many years.

    I gave you my love and you can only guess
    How much you gave to me in happiness.
    I thank you for the love you each have shown
    But now it’s time I traveled alone.

    So grieve a while for me if grieve you must
    Then let your grief be comforted by trust.
    It’s only for a while that we must part
    So bless those memories in your heart.

    I won’t be far away for life goes on
    So if you need me , call and I will come.
    Though you can’t see or touch me, I’ll be near
    with all my love around you soft and clear.

    And then, when you must come this way alone,
    I’ll greet you with a smile and “Welcome You

    Author: Unknown


    1. cathy diamond says:

      These are lovely words Fatima


  25. Orin says:

    I cannot express what I feel right now. And I will not say the “right ” thing. I have never been able to express myself articulately in writing. Saying how incredible you have been on this difficult journey does not suffice. I am glad that Laura ( Big Girl to me) learned how much she was loved by so many people whose lives she touched. And you Lucie are loved by all of us who knew Laura. I hope that somehow that realization will help you now in the next step in your life.
    I cannot get the image of that snowy night when we passed on the street as I was leaving Laura’s and you were coming to her. Laura had just been talking about finding the beautiful English woman., who I thought looked like her sister. I am in awe of both of you. Laura and Lucie.


  26. elaine souda says:

    Dear Lucie, and all of us who will miss Laura so much,

    I wanted to share a poem with you all on this sad day…

    But before I do I wanted to say that love never dies and, Lucie, the love you and Laura felt is forever and so beautiful.

    I also want to thank you Lucie for creating this circle of love that grows wider and deeper because of how we all feel about Laura. Laura was so blessed to have you by her side and we are all blessed to know you, Lucie, through the journey you shared with us all. Bless you Lucie with the strength and comfort you need to carry on now. I’m sure Laura is right there by your side.

    One more thing: Laura, you will be deeply missed but I’m so glad you are out of pain. You will live on in our hearts and minds forever.


    Here is the poem:

    Parable of Immortality ( A ship leaves . . . )
    by Henry Van Dyke – 1852 – 1933

    I am standing by the seashore.
    A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze
    and starts for the blue ocean.
    She is an object of beauty and strength,
    and I stand and watch
    until at last she hangs like a peck of white cloud
    just where the sun and sky come down to mingle with each other.
    Then someone at my side says, ‘There she goes!
    Gone where? Gone from my sight – that is all.
    She is just as large in mast and hull and spar
    as she was when she left my side
    and just as able to bear her load of living freight
    to the places of destination.
    Her diminished size is in me, not in her.
    And just at the moment when someone at my side says,
    ‘There she goes! ‘ ,
    there are other eyes watching her coming,
    and other voices ready to take up the glad shout :
    ‘Here she comes!’


  27. Steve Bealing says:

    Dear Lucie, I am sorry to read that latest entry in the blog. It reads like a strange dream but I know this has all happened for real. Laura has indeed gone but she lives on all those who knew her and when you were a couple. I hope that those friends now support you too as everyone back here in England who are your friends. My deepest love and condolences, Steve xxxx


  28. cathy diamond says:

    My deepest condolences to you, Kerry and Laura’s family. It’s unreal and too real. Thank you for your intimacies, love and caring. Please let us know what we can do in the coming days.


  29. Renée & Sophia says:

    To you Lucie, Laura’s love of her life…
    We send you our deepest condolences. We are profoundly saddened
    by the loss of such a sweet soul.

    We imagine her smile ever widening now
    as her freed spirit begins to soar.
    To a place beyond our narrow vision here.
    To a place far beyond her favorite diving shores.

    So to you dear Lucie, the love of Laura’s life…
    We wish you the strength and courage that your Laura had.
    And know, that as much as words can never express our heart’s pain,
    we say just this – that you are not alone.
    We are here for you.
    With love,
    Renée and Sophia


  30. véronique castaing says:

    Je te presente mes sinceres condoleances.Je suis de tout coeur avec toi et te serre tres fort dans mes bras.


  31. Jenny Doctorow says:

    Dear Lucie,
    Thank you so much for your amazing work, both in caring for Laura, and for this blog. I have never read anything like it and words fail me to tell you how much it has meant to me to read this for the last year or so. You are truly an angel. Dear Laura, May you rest in peace. Your life has been an inspiration. You have died with dignity and grace. I will never forget you.


  32. Alexis Pace says:

    Though I am saddened by the loss of our dear Laura, I talk solice in the fact that she found the beautiful love she deserved over the last 3 years. Lucie – thanks youse much for finding & loving Laura.

    I know she is off on the most amazing scuba dive ever.

    Sending love & healing


  33. Joan Dvorak says:

    Into His hands Laura has surrendered her Spirit. May she rest in peace, She has touched so many lives in ways she never knew. I am so blessed to have met Laura and Lucie…my life will be forever changed.



  34. Emanuela says:

    I’m so sorry, but i haven’t been so in touch with everything that went on with Laura and Lucie, but I want to send you my deepest condolences, and i will always remember her smile. thank you for posting such a thoughtful blog



  35. Friday evening….we lit a candle for Laura. The flame warm and charming….just like Laura. We shall continue to light a Laura candle for a long time to come. Big HUG….Lucie …..


  36. marco52 says:

    Dear Lucie and Family’s
    I am so terribly sorry for your Loss.
    Laura was a very special person and her Beautiful spirit
    will live on as bright and wonderful as she was,and she will be deeply missed…..
    With much Love…..
    Carmine Spinelli


  37. JD Schroen says:

    I am so sorry Lucie. Jessica and I loved meeting you and Laura in Mexico-I only wish under different circumstances…God bless you!!


  38. Joyce Nolen says:

    Laura is an angel now and God is happy to have her home. We should rejoice but instead we sit and cry and mourn the terrible loss of a friend that was loved to the depths of our hearts. We will miss her forever. My heart is breaking. Love and deep sympathy to you Lucie. Joyce Nolen aka Juicy.


    1. Michele says:

      Joyce, I have a video of you giving a dance lesson to Laura at the SBC holiday party in 2009. She was on fire that night, it’s very funny and of course there is the laugh. I tried to post it on facebook to the friends but I am not sure it went through. And yeah, she gave us all nicknames.

      I have been out of NY for many years now and a couple of months ago, I received a very upbeat email from her, not mentioning herself or her illness at all, but asking how I was, what I was doing for work, where I was living, I didn’t want to email her back (for fear it was a phishing expedition), I wanted to talk to her, so I called her cell and it just rang and rang. I thought she had purged the cancer and was busy doin’ her life. Missed connections.

      Numbness and sorrow has kicked in.

      Michele aka Chick(s), Chickiebaby


      1. Paul Pilch says:

        I hope you are doing well in sunny Florida!
        Winter in NYC is cold and it seams that it will last forever….
        Try again please. The video didn’t come through. I’d love to see it.

        We all miss Laura terribly. What a loss for all of us.
        Be well 🙂

        Paul aka Pilcheepie


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