Unexpected Gifts

When time collapses. When a terminal diagnosis enters stage left, it can feel oddly as if the sweetness of life is condensed. Or as one woman put it in A Time To Live, (a British documentary about 12 people, mostly in mid-life, who have been given a terminal diagnosis): ‘The colors are brighter, the trees are greener,…

Scottish Grit

Both my parents were hospitalized with pneumonia just over a week ago.  My mum came into the kitchen to make breakfast and almost immediately collapsed on the floor.  When she came round, she asked my dad to call an ambulance. But when the medics arrived, they noticed that my dad was very ill too. He…

Celebrate

I am celebrating a pinnacle in a journey that began long before I met Laura. Eleven years ago my life was very different. I had to wash my hair almost every night to stop myself from tearing at my scalp. It would burn so badly that even when staying with family or friends, I often got…

My Dear Sis

My dear sis is growing stubble on her head, she says.   The chemo is over and her body is trying to rebound, sprout some new hair and return to vibrant health.  Chemo sounded miserable. After the first round she wasn’t sure she would be able to do the whole 3 month course.  Her liver…

The Hero Complex

I think I have a bit of a hero complex. I want to dash in and rescue people. At the moment I want nothing more than to rescue my sister, Andrea, from cancer.  I wonder does this savior urge stem from past lives? From what I can tell I was a bit of a swashbuckler…

The Energy Blanket

The first night after chemo was pretty rough going for my sis. Thankfully she is doing much much better now, but I do wonder how much of her journey has been influenced by all the loving energy from friends, family (and total strangers!) surrounding her. Even if prayer and intentionally channelled love and kindness can’t…

Cancer Again?

Last night I stayed up with my sister Andrea through the night after her first round of chemo (her husband Ave was knocked out with a stomach bug).  I’ve never seen anyone cycle through so many weird reactions so quickly.  It was a little frightening at first. But she seemed to come back to her…

Outdoor Cancer Therapy

To stop yourself getting cancer you have to avoid things that are known to cause it in the first place, the cancer specialist told my sister Andrea. His top four troublemakers for creating cancer are alcohol, being overweight, smoking and lack of exercise. A good anti-cancer exercise regime includes a minimum of 30 minutes of…

Good News!

Good news – my sister’s breast cancer lumps are out and the surgeon says there is no lymph involvement. She is now cancer free. Hurrah! Hurrah! Hurrah! This isn’t the end of her journey to recovery. It is the beginning. But she is looking amazing and I am so proud of how quickly she has…

Healing

As I’ve found life easier to digest, my digestion has eased As I’ve stopped attacking myself for being different, my body has stopped attacking itself As I’ve begun to flow like water around obstacles, my circulation has flowed more freely As I’ve trusted my body to be strong and beautiful, it has responded in kind.

On Seeing

I’ve come to think of my body as my emotional GPS.  In other words,  physical ailments are really my body’s way of saying ‘Hey, something’s emotionally out of whack.’ Like losing my voice when I am not saying what I feel. This week I had eye problems (AKA ‘not liking what you see’ according to…

The Bee Cure

Spring is my favorite season, but I used to burst out in a symphony of sneezing fits, runny eyes and streaming nose the the moment the spring blooms arrived. Then I discovered a teaspoon-a-day of Bee Pollen cured my hay fever. It works best if you also quit mucous-producing dairy too. Last year I bought…

Motherwort

Motherwort sounds like something dropped into the cauldron by the witches in Macbeth, ‘eye of newt, toe of frog..howlet’s wing..’ But this herb, whose Latin name is ‘lion heart’, is the perfect remedy for grief. Herbalist Robin Rose Bennett gave it to me when Laura was dying. She writes in her new book The Gift of…

The Castor Oil Miracle

For the first time since Xmas, mum is walking again.  Manuka honey soothed the pain of her badly ulcerated toes and light daily rubs of  castor oil sucked out the inflammation and healed her feet. Castor oil is sticky like glue and tastes vile, but it is super rich in Ricinoleic acid, an omega-9 fatty acid,…

Multiple Sclerosis – A Recovery Story

When I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in 2004, I felt like the sky had fallen on my head. But it solved a lifelong mystery. By my mid 40s I had spent over 5 years of my life in bed with bouts of extreme fatigue. When I was ill it felt like all the energy…