Six years ago today was one of the most precious days of my life. The next morning, after our wedding, Laura rolled over in bed and grabbed me; ‘Now you are mine!’ she grinned. She was so covered in tumors, every movement was hard, so it felt like a small miracle. Six years later she is still nudging me, ticking me and cheering me on. One day I’ll see her again on the other side, but for now I’m happy to be here. This year of deprivations – Covid, lock down, my arm injury, losing my sense of smell and taste (now thankfully returning 9 months later) have brought me to my senses. Why is it when we are confronted by loss, we realize at last what a miraculous sensory world we inhabit. And what we wanted most of all was right here all the time.