Back to my senses

Six years ago today was one of the most precious days of my life. The next morning, after our wedding, Laura rolled over in bed and grabbed me; ‘Now you are mine!’ she grinned. She was so covered in tumors, every movement was hard, so it felt like a small miracle. Six years later she…

Unexpected Gifts

When time collapses. When a terminal diagnosis enters stage left, it can feel oddly as if the sweetness of life is condensed. Or as one woman put it in A Time To Live, (a British documentary about 12 people, mostly in mid-life, who have been given a terminal diagnosis): ‘The colors are brighter, the trees are greener,…

The Alchemy of Love

Sir Anthony Seldon, a British schoolmaster and political author, recently described the beautiful alchemy that transforms love  at the end of life. His wife Joanna died of cancer in December 2016. ” The illness might have withered her body, but it strengthened our love and faith.  Never had we known such profound physical intimacy and romance…

The Hero Complex

I think I have a bit of a hero complex. I want to dash in and rescue people. At the moment I want nothing more than to rescue my sister, Andrea, from cancer.  I wonder does this savior urge stem from past lives? From what I can tell I was a bit of a swashbuckler…

Cancer Again?

Last night I stayed up with my sister Andrea through the night after her first round of chemo (her husband Ave was knocked out with a stomach bug).  I’ve never seen anyone cycle through so many weird reactions so quickly.  It was a little frightening at first. But she seemed to come back to her…

Outdoor Cancer Therapy

To stop yourself getting cancer you have to avoid things that are known to cause it in the first place, the cancer specialist told my sister Andrea. His top four troublemakers for creating cancer are alcohol, being overweight, smoking and lack of exercise. A good anti-cancer exercise regime includes a minimum of 30 minutes of…

Good News!

Good news – my sister’s breast cancer lumps are out and the surgeon says there is no lymph involvement. She is now cancer free. Hurrah! Hurrah! Hurrah! This isn’t the end of her journey to recovery. It is the beginning. But she is looking amazing and I am so proud of how quickly she has…

Laura’s Posts

Two friends recently expressed surprise when I mentioned that Laura posted quite a bit in the early days of this blog. So I’ve created a special link to all of ‘Laura’s Posts’ (you reach it by clicking the menu icon – looks like a bunch of layers – on the top right hand side of…

The Spiritual Mushroom

How do you take the sting out of death and make a terminal cancer patient feel peaceful about their imminent demise? Scientists at NYU, in New York, have developed a technique which is straight out of the Timothy Leary playbook. They are giving dying patients a single high dose of a hallucinogenic mushroom, which takes…

Inspired by Kathleen

Kathleen Blake is one of the most altruistic people I’ve met. She healed from thyroid cancer 28 years ago doing the Gerson Therapy and even though she is retired now and could be relaxing in her Sedona garden with her lovely Westie, Toby, she spends most days manning the Facebook Gerson Therapy Support Group page,…

10 Years

These past 10 years have been the hardest of my life. Almost exactly a year ago, Laura’s CT scan came back with pages and pages of new cancer tumors. They poured out of the fax machine in what seemed to be a never ending stream, detailing tumors in her bones, and every organ except her…

Reading

‘Does it make any sense at all to know that it ends badly for all of us, even the happiest of us, and that we all lose everything that matters in the end – and yet to know as well, despite all this, as cruelly as the game is stacked, that it’s possible to play…

Through a Glass Darkly

‘What I’ve learned is that I’ve so much more to Learn’ -Maya Angelou. I couldn’t agree more.  These past 8 months it is as if a whole other world has opened up to me. The life I am living now suddenly seems like a tiny walk on part within an elaborate play cycle that spans centuries…

The Air We Breathe

Sitting in traffic in the outskirts of London, looking at all the little homes bang up against the motorway, I thought ‘Wow, how can people live like that? It must be so toxic.’ Then it occurred to me, my building in Manhattan is barely 50 feet from the FDR Drive. Today I counted 16 lanes…

Inspired

Wow! I was bowled over this morning when I switched on my laptop to find the blog got almost 5,000 hits in one day and so many kind messages of love and support from meditators on the Deepak Chopra site. It lifts my wings and makes me feel less alone. It was exactly a year…