Does true love attract more love to it like a magnet? It certainly seemed that way for Laura and I. We felt incredibly blessed by the outpouring of love and support on this blog, by the flow of donations to the Go Fund Me page and by the unstinting help and compassion of the friends who came – often again and again – to juice and to sit vigil on long overnight shifts at the hospital. It buoyed us up and kept us going. I couldn’t have been there for Laura in the way that I was without all of you. I would have burnt out long ago.
For whatever reason Laura never really felt secure in the love of those around her, not until she fell ill and this precious love started to pour in. She resisted it at first. She insisted no-one would come to help juice. Then she said you wouldn’t stick around because ‘the beast’ (our nickname for the Norwalk juicer) was such a temperamental firecracker spitting carrots everywhere (we even found carrot chunks in the bath). And neither of us thought the blog would be of interest once she got sick. We thought we were writing a guide to how best to do the Gerson technique. So imagine our surprise when instead the blog grew and grew and people around the world joined our vigil and lit candles for Laura the night she died.
The gift you gave to Laura was transfiguring. The miracle we had wished for was that Laura would live. But the miracle she got was realizing for the first time in her life how loved she was. At the end, she was cocooned in love and I believe it helped shepherd her gently onward.
Since Laura’s passing, I have inherited this extraordinary extended family, which includes so many new friends. You have held my hand through my grief. Many of you I’ve never met. I know you only via your kind words on this blog. You surround me with love and keep me afloat. I can never thank you enough.