Sedona, Snakes & Saviors

‘It’s rattlesnake season,’ the woman rescuing us said, as she and her golden retriever led the way back over the red rocks, through the juniper trees, sweetly scented sage bushes and tangled yews to the Sedona trail head where we had parked our car a couple of hours earlier. We weren’t exactly lost. We were concerned….

Unexpected Gifts

When time collapses. When a terminal diagnosis enters stage left, it can feel oddly as if the sweetness of life is condensed. Or as one woman put it in A Time To Live, (a British documentary about 12 people, mostly in mid-life, who have been given a terminal diagnosis): ‘The colors are brighter, the trees are greener,…

Celebrate

I am celebrating a pinnacle in a journey that began long before I met Laura. Eleven years ago my life was very different. I had to wash my hair almost every night to stop myself from tearing at my scalp. It would burn so badly that even when staying with family or friends, I often got…

The Energy Blanket

The first night after chemo was pretty rough going for my sis. Thankfully she is doing much much better now, but I do wonder how much of her journey has been influenced by all the loving energy from friends, family (and total strangers!) surrounding her. Even if prayer and intentionally channelled love and kindness can’t…

Journeying On

Why is travel such a comfort after loss?  Is it that being on the move gives shape and purpose to a life when there is no shape or purpose left? My first thought after Laura died was to cut free of my normal existance, which was in tatters, and take refuge in travel.  I went…

The Greatest Gift

The Greatest gift you can give to someone who is grieving is to let them talk about their departed loved on.  It is something I know from my own experience, but it was a great comfort to hear Sue Frederick, an experienced grief coach, repeat it in her Grief Coaching workshop today For me it…

Awakening

Yesterday I went to the ‘Healing Our Grief’ workshop at the Open Center. It was a beautiful sharing experience hosted by Sue Frederick author of Bridges to Heaven. Sue’s husband died age 37 from cancer and her best friend died the same year. These two tragedies transformed her life, reawakened her intuition and her spiritual…

Vipassana

A decade ago, I saw The Dhamma Brothers documentary about how a group of ultra violent prisoners in Alabama came to terms with what they had done (most had committed murder) by doing Vipassana.  It is an extreme meditation practice where you sit in silence for 10 days straight. It acts like a spiritual car wash and…

Chalice Well

The Chalice Well at the foot of Glastonbury Tor is supposed to contain healing water. When I drank a little, I was surprised to find it tastes like blood, probably due to the high iron content and slightly viscose quality. The taste is an odd coincidence because legend has it Joseph of Arimethea buried the…

Week 1: Reversing high blood pressure

Before our Puglia trip, a nurse at mum’s hospital told her:  ‘Go on holiday. Don’t worry about your blood pressure. Eat whatever you want’  We all hoped she was right. Mum had a fantastic time eating carefree (gelato, rum babas, pasta, panini, salty prosciutto, potatoes cooked in dripping etc). But the moment we got home…

Mucosal Melanoma: Celebrating the Survivors

Today is the one year anniversary of the day that Laura was rushed to Beth Israel Hospital to see a top cancer specialist. On a routine exam in the morning her gynecologist found a golf ball size mass in her vagina.  Two days later we were told it was mucosal melanoma.  11 days later we…

Gerson Revisited – part two

Laura and I really believed in the Gerson diet and its power to cure cancer and other diseases (we have friends from the clinic currently on the diet who are doing well – bravo, bravo. bravo!!!!). But the founder of the diet Dr Max Gerson is long dead, and his wonderful daughter Charlotte (who we…

Fever + Cancer

Laura’s has had an unimaginably hard week what with her on/off fever, rigors, drenching sweats (three nights in a row), coughing and vomiting.  Yesterday, at the suggestion of her oncologist, we visited a local urgent care unit for a chest x-ray. It showed no metastasis (YHEA!!!!!!) and no sign of pneumonia (which the oncologist feared)….

Alternative Healing for Depression

We believe the universe is looking after us, steering us away from what no longer works and towards what we need now. That probably sounds like madness, but we’ve had so many fortuitous coincidences it feels like a hand wiser than ours is guiding us. One of the biggest challenges for Laura’s healing is to…

Blood Work Update

Dr Cervantes at the Gerson Clinic in Mexico isn’t happy with Laura’s blood work. Her sodium and chloride levels have dropped too low, her LDH (the cancer marker) has leapt up to 390 and he is worried she isn’t eating all her meals, especially on castor oil days.  This is a big deal.  It’s really…