Kindness abounds. Friends invite me on holiday to Palm Beach. The neighbors keep a watchful eye on my 92-year-old dad. And after nearly nine months of flat lining emotionally or worse feeling desolate and sometimes lost since mum’s passing, it’s as if the power is beginning to flicker back on inside. And more than that….
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In Praise of Desire
Instead of feeling anxious about your desires, relax in the certainty that your deepest desires are leading you to the very best expression of yourself. Your inner voice is speaking to you and that my friends is where true happiness lies – Oprah Winfrey
Unexpected Gifts
When time collapses. When a terminal diagnosis enters stage left, it can feel oddly as if the sweetness of life is condensed. Or as one woman put it in A Time To Live, (a British documentary about 12 people, mostly in mid-life, who have been given a terminal diagnosis): ‘The colors are brighter, the trees are greener,…
The Measure of Success
‘Are you a parking garage?’ the voice said on the phone. When I said ‘No!’, he sounded very disappointed. How I laughed at the silly surreal-ness of it afterwards. It was just the break I need in an otherwise colorless day. After three weeks away, it is easy to come home and start tidying…
What If…
What if every drop of love and joy you feel affects and expands the pool of human consciousness; bringing more joy and light into the world? And what if every drop of anger, fear and anxiety does the same; creating more of those destabilizing emotions? Then wouldn’t the best way to improve the world be…
Happiness
‘You seem stronger, happier, more your self than ever before,’ my sister said recently. It is the strangest paradox. I get whiplash trying to understand how this is possible. How do great loss and happiness go together. It is not even 18 months since I lost the person I loved most in the world; my…
Learning to Fly
My higher spirit was right. I really do learn through pain. I wish there was an easier route, but pain really gets my attention. And after wrenching my back before Xmas (see the post Crash), I was in the kind of pain where swearing a lot helped release some of the agony. So I did…
The Crash
In a year of extraordinary revelations and discoveries, the biggest awakening came with a bang just before Xmas. After doing the life between lives regression (see The Dance of Spirit), I felt as if I was on heroin. I floated through the world deliriously happy and filled with love. Then two days later, I crashed back…
Surprised by Joy
This morning, as I walked to Carl Schurz park, I asked Laura if she would send me something uplifting to do with dogs. Ever since I did the life between lives regression I’ve been practicing manifesting joy (this is the most important thing I learned). No sooner had I stepped into the park than a…
Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas everyone!! I flew into the UK last night. I was supposed to be on a 10 day Vipassana retreat, sitting in silence to feel and release what happened last year when Laura was admitted to hospital on Xmas Eve. On Christmas day 2013, the doctors told us she might only have a…
Through a Glass Darkly
‘What I’ve learned is that I’ve so much more to Learn’ -Maya Angelou. I couldn’t agree more. These past 8 months it is as if a whole other world has opened up to me. The life I am living now suddenly seems like a tiny walk on part within an elaborate play cycle that spans centuries…
Soul Love Forever 