Laura – I started meditating at the age of 17 with Transcendental Meditation. I would sit in bed repeating my mantra and fall asleep. So much for meditation. Over the years I would try to connect with a Higher Power, the Universe, whatever you want to call it but always had a hard time. There was one year I did Mindful Meditation taught to me by a very gifted teacher, Samuel Kirschner, but I stopped. At different times of my life I would pray and write a gratitude list. Feeling grateful put me in a positive state of mind and stopped the spiral of negativity. Also I felt like I was making conscious contact with a power greater than myself. But I didn’t keep this up either.
Now, since I have melanoma I know it is time to really settle down and seriously go within. Today I was suffering from extreme anxiety and knew I had to meditate, so on went soothing iTunes and I sat for 20 minutes. I was able to calm myself down and believe that I don’t need to know where I’m going, I’m being cared for and I will come out the other side in peace. When finished with the sitting I was the calmest I’ve been in a long time.