Laura’s Gift


My dear heart, Laura, was born 62 years ago today.  She has been ‘gone’ nearly 3 years, almost the same amount of time that we were together. And still I feel her presence so sweetly and vividly.  I used to think that she was reaching out  from ‘the other side’ (wherever that is), but now I believe there is no other side, it is all one continuum and we just haven’t learned how to see and experience it fully – yet.

It is Laura’s birthday today, but I am the one who got an extraordinary gift.  Yesterday I walked into Carl Schurz park and said ‘Laura, send me something lovely’ (as I sometimes do) and within a few minutes a beautiful white dove alighted on the path in front of me.  I thought that was my treat, so I walked on contentedly and reached a quiet area near 85th street where I noticed dozens of pigeons massing in a tree.

When I stopped to take stock, it was like a signal to the birds.  They started to dive directly at me, flying over my head and shoulders. Oddly I wasn’t scared. I felt exhilarated. They came quickly in to land in a tight circle around my feet. I counted over 100. They stood, puffed up, cooing and looking at me. They weren’t pecking for food or walking around, just standing and staring in a ring that extended to about 5 or 6 feet away from me.  I can’t tell you how extraordinary it felt; how calming and protective. We all stayed like that for 5 or 10 minutes and the birds didn’t move until eventually a lady with a dog approached and they slowly flew away. Towards the end, I kept saying ‘thank you’ over and over.  I don’t know why, or what the birds meant.  But I know how it felt – otherworldly, precious, dare I say divine.

4 Comments Add yours

  1. MLou says:

    You are a receptor, for sure.


  2. Mary says:

    Oh wow. So beautiful, tears welled up in my eyes when I read it. We are all one somehow. I don’t understand it but I know it’s true.


  3. What a beautiful gift Laura sent you!


  4. Jamie says:

    You and Laura and the depth and creativity of your shared love never ceases to put me in awe and wonder. Glad you met someone who meets your sense of adventure, curiosity, humour, and love.

    Happy Birthday to Laura!


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