Being There

There is a wonderful energy that thrums between two people that you can’t see with the naked eye. It has the power to soothe and to heal. Faced with a crisis, we often feel the need to do something to make a difference, and nowhere more so than at the bedside of the ill or…

Larkin on Love

‘What will survive of us is Love.’ from Philip Larkin’s poem – An Arundel Tomb

Telepathy

When I was very little I often wondered why I couldn’t hear anyone else’s thoughts. It seemed so strange to me. I felt sure I should be able to hear everything. At times I felt limited by my body and I would dream I could lift off, fly and be free. Now I know we…

The New Science of Consciousness

  I just spent the most extraordinary 4 days at the Art of Dying conference, run by the New York Open Center. One of the hot topics was the new scientific understanding of consciousness. Pim Van Lommel, a Dutch cardiologist explained that consciousness is no longer believed to reside in the brain, or even the…

Laura’s Choice

You may have gotten two versions of my Peter Fenwick post yesterday. I posted one version called Scientific Proof – As If Any Was Needed, but ‘someone else’ (I suspect my beloved mischievous Laura) hit publish on an earlier draft called Dying Well (the version printed below). This draft contains a paragraph about all the…

Dying Well

If you buy one book on dying make it this one. British neurologist Peter Fenwick’s extraordinary The Art of Dying lends scientific credence to all the weird paranormal phenomena I’ve experienced while Laura lay dying last year and in the 15 months since. Fenwick spent nearly 40 years reviewing thousands of death bed phenomena; lights…

Dance Break

What a riot.  I just tried a Zumba class and couldn’t stop laughing.  Laura would have loved it. On one of our first dates we danced non stop for 3 hours and ran through Laura’s entire iTunes library. In today’s Zumba class, I felt like Naomi Watts in While We’re Young trying to look cool in hip…

Mother Teresa

The modern hospice movement is usually credited to Britain’s Dame Cicly Saunders who opened St Christopher’s hospice in London in 1967. But what about Mother Teresa?  In 1952 she created the Khalighat home for the dying in an abandoned Hindu temple in Calcutta.  It was a free hospice for the poor and the homeless. All comers…

Good News.

The surgeon is going to do ‘watchful waiting’ with mum’s aneurysms.  He is not even going to treat her leg clot (a possible break off piece from the aneurysm) as he said the contrast dye used in the angioplasty operation would hurt her kidneys. So it is back to natural remedies and lots of love,…

Howl

I feel like I am standing on the beach, shouting at the waves to go back.  Could someone please arrange with the universe to give my family a break. I don’t want anyone else dying – not yet.  I know we all must go and we’ll all be OK in the end. Death is really…

A Sign

When I was a little girl, I wanted a sign from God. I had read about the burning bush in the Bible and I’d heard of Bernadette Soubirous’s visions and I thought: “Well, why can’t I have a sign too?” I was probably about 8. My plan was to jump off the top of the…

The Grace in Dying

Kathleen Dowling Singh, a former hospice worker and author of The Grace in Dying writes: “Dying .. softens us, opens us. In the course of living with terminal illness, our inner experience begins to change in nature. As our grasp loosens, we may begin to experience a more spontaneous forgiveness, a deepening love, and a pervasive sense…

Laura’s Gifts

I love birds.  But I’ve never had one land on me before.  Once a cat fell out of a tree onto my shoulders, but I don’t think that counts. And then today….I got two birds at once!  It was a particularly sweet experience because when I left my apartment this morning I said to Laura…

The Vatican’s Spiritual Approval

I just learned that the Vatican approves of our talking to deceased loved ones. The Reverend Gino Concetti, chief theological commentator for the Vatican newspaper, L’Osservatore, told the British newspaper The Observer: “Communication is possible between those who live on this earth and those who live in a state of eternal repose, in heaven or…