I heart you

Saturday is Laura’s birthday.  This month she has been deluging me with hearts.  I find them everywhere, usually several a day; a heart shaped piece of breakfast eggshell, a wet patch by the bath, 3 heart shaped pieces of gum on the pavement, a tiny heart shaped red leaf, a line of a dozen hearts…

All The Light We Cannot See

I am in love with writer Anthony Doerr’s work. I can’t tell you how happy I am to finally find his books. When Laura was ill, I lost the desire to read fiction. It was such a surprise. I am a literature major who typically devours a handful of novels a month. But now I find…

Old Marrieds

Today would have been Laura’s 61st birthday.  She died nearly 2 years ago.  Our spiritual honeymoon is over. Gone are the fireworks of the early days after she passed.  She no longer woos me by flashing the lights, spontaneously playing our favorite songs on our computers, making objects jump off the shelves or bang together….

Life After Life

Until this trip nearly all the spiritual stories I’d heard were told by women. Maybe it was sitting on a male energy vortex that changed things. Greg, a gay man and former catholic priest visiting the Christ in the Desert Monastery, laughed when I said I was a little spooked at first  experiencing Laura’s spiritual…

Butterfly Tickles

Laura has been very busy this week from what I can tell. In case you missed the post in comments, Laura popped up in a dream and tickled our good friend Toni and her partner Jill until Toni was speechless and wriggling on the floor feeling, ‘bathed in a million lights and laughing gas’.  Laura…

Out of the Wardrobe

  This past year I’ve felt like Lucy in The Lion, The Witch And The Wardrobe, falling out of a cosy wardrobe into a whole other world that I never knew was there. My experiences of Laura’s spiritual presence have opened the door to a vast parallel universe of life beyond life. At first I…

Grandmothers

  Here are our beloved maternal grandmothers.  Laura’s grandma lived in the apartment below her parents in Forest Hills Queens and lavished her with the love and attention she felt she was missing at home. Laura wrote: ‘I took after my grandmother and liked art. She bought me my first camera a Minolta SLR101 that…

Loving Laura

Laura is very present to me now as a powerful and comforting spiritual presence.  If you’ve been reading this blog you’ll know that since Laura passed I’ve been seeing firefly-like lights, hearing words of encouragement in my head and experiencing our computers and iPods suddenly play our favorite songs. And I am delighted to report…

Home again

‘I’m free. And I’m going back home, back to where I belong,’ our friend Fatima sang at Laura’s memorial. She was channelling what Laura would say to us from the after life if she could. In Michael Newton’s book Journey of Souls, people use the exact same language to describe how they feel after leaving…

Journey of Souls

OK so I am obsessed with the afterlife.  I want to know what happened to Laura, where she is now and if I’ll ever see her again. So I am over the moon about my new book Journey of Souls by Michael Newton. The author spent 30 years hypnotizing 100s of people, getting them to…