Resistance

  I’ve taught Tai Chi for over 15 years, but as with everything I am still learning,  I love the fluid movements – the spiraling, flowing dance that soothes my soul and energizes me.  Afterwards I feel calm, alert and balanced inside and out. It looks so soft and gentle. But Tai Chi is the…

Spirits Up!

Today I fulfilled another flying dream – whooshing up into the air in a little GT450 microlight plane – essentially an engine powered go-cart attached to a hang-glider. As we tore down the runway at 80mph, my co-pilot told me ‘these little machines are the rockets of the air’.  Perched on a seat a little wider…

Yoga

Laura loves yoga.  Or rather Laura loves coming to tickle me during yoga class. Yesterday I found myself giggling out loud after Laura wrapped herself around me as I was getting ready to do ‘boat pose’. It was a bit like that scene in the movie Ghost where Patrick Swayze’s ‘departed’ character comes up behind…

Laura’s Recovery

Have you noticed? This site has a new name –  Soul Love Forever. It sums up the essence of what I’ve learned on this journey; that true love never dies and that our infinite souls, our most precious gift, travel with us through all of time and space.  I loved the old name Laura’s Recovery,…

Laura’s Gifts

I love birds.  But I’ve never had one land on me before.  Once a cat fell out of a tree onto my shoulders, but I don’t think that counts. And then today….I got two birds at once!  It was a particularly sweet experience because when I left my apartment this morning I said to Laura…

Anyone For Tennis?

I am in Palm Springs for work this week. I’ve always loved this tumbleweed town with its low slung modernist houses and desert rat concrete bunker architecture. It is an odd mix of beautiful and bonkers. Tomorrow I’m visiting Bob Hope’s estate (on the market for $25 million). The house looks like a cross between…

Adventures in the Food Trade

I could swear I met Laura years ago. She always said no. But in the 90s I attended endless fashion, design, film, book, TV, architecture and art cocktail parties for work. Laura was a catering manager who passed hors d’ouevres at exactly these kind of events. So there is a high likelihood we crossed paths.  All…

Twin Flame

One of the most beautiful things that came out of my leap up into the spirit realm (doing the life between lives regression) was discovering that Laura and I are ‘twin flames’, two souls created at the same time from the same energy, which may explain our intense connection and our delight in each other’s…

Anais Nin

‘As my desire to bloom arrived, I flourished.  No longer fearing the journey it takes to truly open and unfold.  Deeply I breathe in as my breath is taken away. I found my voice, yet even as it lay dormant in the quiet. As I stumbled in the sometimes darkness and fell.  Standing back up…

A Year Ago

Laura died a year ago today (at 2.50am on Jan 16, 2014).  On her last morning she smiled her beautiful smile and told me;  ‘I love you’. I didn’t realize it then, but those were her last words. Our wedding certificate had just arrived and Laura was over the moon. We had been married exactly…

Laying Low

Grief is like a rip-tide.  It grabs you by surprise and pulls you under. There is no warning.  Sunday was Laura and I’s 4th anniversary (of when we met). I was fine all day until about 5pm and then I just collapsed. I am still as weak as a limp lettuce today. All morning all…

The Golden Ticket

The morning of New Year’s Eve 2010  I woke up super excited.  I dreamt the night before I had won the lottery.  I almost never played the lottery, so I bought $40 worth of tickets.  The tickets were all duds.  But New Year’s Eve 2010 was the day I first looked at online dating sites….

New Wedding Clips

Two new clips of our wedding just before the service (my family in the UK took them via Skype). It is fun to see Laura chatting and joking. And in case you missed it last year, here’s our brief, but beautiful wedding…

Wedding Anniversary

Tomorrow is my favorite day of the year.  It is Laura’s and my wedding anniversary.  Over our three years together, we sang ‘A your Adorable’ almost every night to each other, making up our own silly words for each letter of the alphabet. The more bonkers the better.  Laura jumped in first with ‘Marry Me’…

The Arms of Love

I often wake in the morning now to find myself all wrapped up snuggly with my feet playing what Laura called ‘feetsies’, my arms gently wrapped around me, with hands against my cheeks and suffused with a deep soul warmth and joy. When this happens, I  wonder if Laura’s spirit slipped into bed during the…