All The Light We Cannot See

I am in love with writer Anthony Doerr’s work. I can’t tell you how happy I am to finally find his books. When Laura was ill, I lost the desire to read fiction. It was such a surprise. I am a literature major who typically devours a handful of novels a month. But now I find…

Sacred

Today is a sacred day for me. This was Laura’s last full day on earth.  And close to midnight, I got to watch the magic of her soul streaming upward out of her body. But I’ve always felt sad that I missed Laura’s final words, or rather that I couldn’t make them out.  Just before…

The Soap Box

I After posting my tub thumping review of the movies Carol and Brooklyn last week, I was twiddling my thumbs wondering what Laura would make of it.  I once put her to sleep explaining – at length –  how Darwin’s theory of the survival of the fittest was fundamentally flawed. As I reached my triumphant…

Little Presents

I was standing in line for the bathroom at Starbucks last Saturday, when the young woman behind me bent over and picked up a dime.  Without thinking I said: ‘It’s your lucky day!  Do you find many coins?’ She beamed back a lovely smile and said: ‘Ever since my mom passed, I find these dimes everywhere.’  Her…

Talking To Spirit

Today I heard Esther Hicks (or rather the spiritual entities that  Esther channels) explaining how to talk to departed loved ones, and revel in their unconditional love.  Esther lost her husband Jerry a few years ago.  But he is still a very playful presence in her life.  I was so delighted when I heard this…

Wedding Present

December 15th  is my wedding anniversary.  This weekend I was thinking about the strange beauty of that day, two years ago. And also – if I am honest –  I’ve been missing the two little paper hearts that Laura and I exchanged instead of rings (they used to hang on a thread over the kitchen…

The Sweetest Gift

Quietly while you were asleep The moon and I were talking I asked that she’d always keep you protected She promised you her light That you so gracefully carry You bring your light and shine like morning And then the wind pulls the clouds across the moon Your light fills the darkest room And I…

The Pope – nature can be your church

‘It is not necessary to believe in God to be a good person. In a way, the traditional notion of God is outdated. One can be spiritual but not religious. It is not necessary to go to church and give money – for many, nature can be a church. Some of the best people in…

Divine Timing

A dear friend, surrounded by her family and loved ones, said goodbye to her beloved mom last week.  As I stood graveside listening to the heart felt speeches, I felt like I was standing in a painting with all the beautiful fall colors daubed around us. But my heart skipped a beat as my friend…

Connecting with the Departed

Here’s Abraham Hicks explaining what it feels like to connect to a departed loved one’s spirit.  Note – you usually you need to meditate first and be in a positive frame of mind (not depressed or grieving): ‘It will seem odd at first. You will think you are making it up. But you won’t be….

James Turrell

One of my all time favorite interviewees was artist James Turrell. I interviewed him for the New York Times Magazine about one of his sky spaces (little enclosures that frame the sky in magical ways). He referred to his work as. ‘a luminous emptiness..a meditation..abstract music.. a celebration of the senses..’ and jokingly added: ‘I sell…

No Return

I shock myself. I used to imagine, ‘What if I could rewind the clock to before Laura got ill?’ Imaging how our lives would pan out if she had lived. But last week I realized I don’t want to go back. Don’t get me wrong, I would have Laura back in a heart beat. It…

Laura Speaks

If you regularly read this blog, you’ll know I sometimes ask Laura: ‘Send me something lovely!’ And invariably something fun happens. Today I was walking home from the subway and asked Laura to surprise me. I started singing ‘Pennies From Heaven’ in hopes of finding lots of pennies. I guess I was trying to force…

Golden Rain

It is funny, whenever a well-meaning friend or acquaintance hints that I ought to let Laura’s spirit go – as if I’ve somehow got her ghost by the ankles and am holding her captive in this realm – Laura starts being all mischievous and dancing around in front of me.  When someone said it on…

Intuition

 Prayer is the phone call and intuition is the answer – Christiane Northrup