Laura has not woken up since this morning. She is heavily sedated now and breathing lightly. Her brother Barry, her former partner Kerry and I are here with her this evening. An hour ago, the very reverend Rebecca, who married us popped in to do a blessing. Laura is surrounded by love both present and…
Category: LOVE
I’m dying..
This morning Laura grasped my hand and said ‘I’m dying’. The doctors have come to the same conclusion. Her liver is failing and she is now very frail. She no longer eats and just occasionally will allow me to feed her small sips of juice. She can no longer focus her eyes to see…
Our anniversary
Today is our 3rd year anniversary and this is one of the first days since Laura was diagnosed with cancer that we have been apart. I’ve been in the hospital with Laura everyday, mostly 12-14 hours a day, except the last two days. I am at home now with a cold. The doctors don’t want anyone…
Sips of Sweetness
New Year’s eve was a hard day, Laura was more delirious, agitated, confused and weaker than before. But sometimes like a jack in the box she lights up, pops up and can hold a conversation. The evening was full of those moments. At 7pm the nurse brought in a little bottle of fizzy apple cider…
Lilies
The calla lilies Laura and I bought at City Hall when we got our marriage license in early December are incredibly still alive 3 and a half weeks later. Not all of them. Just two. This little miracle gives us great pleasure. The clerk at City Hall in Manhattan told us that now even numbers…
Our Wedding Video
To all our dear friends and family who we dreamed of having at our wedding, but couldn’t because Laura wasn’t well, we invite you now to our very short – but oh so sweet! – marriage service. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qkl7BGAHshI And the view from the UK via Skype (watch out for the cheeky bridesmaids and the confetti)…
Together Forever
Laura woke up this morning and said ‘Come here. You are mine now!’ We’re both loving being married. We had no expectations, none. But it’s no exaggeration to say we are over the moon. It is as if the world revolves a little differently today – lighter, gentler and sweeter. If we’d planned our wedding…
Mrs & Mrs
We got married today…! …more details to follow
Just Being
Standing in the kitchen today packing up the Gerson things and watching over Laura as she rests (she is still very weak and sleeping a lot), I think this whole experience has shown me that for the first time in my life I’ve experienced true love with a partner. As a child I watched my…
Being Vulnerable
‘Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your…
Energy Beings
Laura has the magical ability to transform pain into a bearable place for me. Skyping her from England after my mum had a stroke, I was too distraught to speak, but just looking into her eyes soothed me. In New York, after an arduous day, I wrap myself around Laura in bed or on the…
The Incredible Mattress Thief
Some people swipe the covers at night, but I don’t know of anyone except Laura who can steal the mattress out from underneath you while you sleep. Short of installing a spy-cam, I’ll never know how she does it. Every night, 6-inches-to-a-foot of mattress vanishes on my side and reappears as a kind of ‘terrace’…
Warrior Woman
Laura- My girl Lucie, she sure is somethin’. She is like a warrior fighting for me to get healthy. Lucie is a Scotswoman in every way. In the olden days the Romans were so frightened by the Scots that they built Hadrian’s Wall to keep them out. The women were allegedly fiercer fighters than the…
Holding Hands
It’s lovely to be so close to Tijuana beach. But its hard being somewhere we don’t feel comfortable holding hands or expressing our love for each other. Miami Beach February 2013
Going gray
Laura – I’m a vain person. I want to look as young as possible. I’ve dyed my hair since my 40s. This is the last vanity that I have right now and I’m scared to let it go. I’ve been Googling pictures of women with gray hair – some look old, some look beautiful….
Soul Love Forever 