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Category: LOVE
Love Is All That Matters
Elizabeth Kubler-Ross helped create the US hospice movement (she was opposed to euthanasia because ‘it doesn’t allow people time to complete their unfinished business.’). Her book Life Lessons contains what she learned by sitting at the bedside of the dying. Here are a few of my favorite quotes – ‘Love is all that matters. Love is…
Soul Mate Test
When I am not sure how I feel about something (which is surprisingly often), I use Eugene Gendlin’s Focusing technique to cut through all the mental gymnastics and listen to what my body is saying. I used it the first time I met Laura to see if she was the right person for me and got…
Laura’s Poem
Let us lie down together holding hands, looking in to one another’s soul. There is a real beauty there, an understanding in the eyes that has passed between two women like never before. Dared I dream of you? Never would I even know how. But you magically appeared. If I wake up, will you still…
Post Traumatic Stress
Every night I wake up multiple times out of nightmares in which I am frantically running around performing multiple tasks to hold at bay some faceless enemy. I never win or lose, I just battle on and on until I wake up. The nightmares started when Laura was in hospital. I kept thinking that as…
A perfect day
Today I cycled through Central Park, past the confetti of spring flowers, brown twigs and mud, to the place where Laura and I had our last perfect day before she was diagnosed with mucosal melanoma. We lay out all day under the trees on our picnic blanket, reading our books, snuggled in each other’s lap,…
Doggie Love
Laura LOVED dogs. She spent the last 4 years of her life photographing them and took up grooming so she could spend extra hours playing with her furry friends. ‘All I had to do was love them. I didn’t have to be special. I didn’t have to have a great resume or anything for them…
The Circle of Love
Does true love attract more love to it like a magnet? It certainly seemed that way for Laura and I. We felt incredibly blessed by the outpouring of love and support on this blog, by the flow of donations to the Go Fund Me page and by the unstinting help and compassion of the friends…
Tree Love
Washington Sq Park – October 2013
The Bossy Pants Award
Laura and I’s favorite vacation photo is a boring garden snap which prominently features Laura’s finger indicating the direction in which I should have taken the shot. We howled with laughter over this picture. We both thought each other was ‘the bossy one’ in the relationship. It was a source of endless mirth and some…
Muddled & in Pain
Today I put my bra on inside out, yesterday I left the keys in the front door overnight and a couple of days earlier I was walking down the street unaware that I was crying. The English have a word for it, muddled. Nothing seems to be in the right place – least of all…
Laura’s passing
The love of my life has gone. Her suffering has ended, but the hole she leaves in my life is so vast and I am so exhausted and in pain that I have been unable to write or be in touch these past few days. People have called and emailed and posted here the…
2.50am
Laura has gone.
Illuminated
As Laura lies gently breathing, I see occasional sparks of light like fireflies glowing around her head. Earlier this evening I saw an intense green white aura surrounding her face. It could be sitting too long in the semi-darkness with all the strange electrical paraphernalia of the hospital. But the night before we came to…
Soul Love Forever 