Today I put my bra on inside out, yesterday I left the keys in the front door overnight and a couple of days earlier I was walking down the street unaware that I was crying. The English have a word for it, muddled. Nothing seems to be in the right place – least of all…
Laura’s Memorial
On February 5 2014, a hundred of Laura’s nearest and dearest came together to celebrate her life and reminisce about her playful, sweet quirky self. It seems she had a nickname for everyone (brownie-poo, pilchie pie, yabo – you get the picture!). The room was filled with love, sharing, heartfelt speeches and fun performances. Who can…
the missing photos – part 3
Laura loved to lay out under the trees in Carl Schurz Park. This was during the Gerson diet. We took a couple of carrot juices and stole an hour away from ‘the beast’ She also loved all the flowers people brought her at home and in the hospital. These sunflowers were among her favorites. Beautiful…
The missing photos – part 2
Laura – November 6, 2013 Reg, Laura & Nicki Laura & Joyce – playing air guitar to Janis Joplin, December 20, 2013 more air guitar Robin, Laura & Barry (Laura’s brother) Our miracle calla lilles – 2 survived for 32 days and finally wilted on our 3rd anniversary
The missing photos – part 1
Some of our favorite photos from this Fall/Winter never got posted because once Laura’s tumor fevers started in late November, there simply wasn’t time. So here they are now – Laura – December 10, 2013 Bill and Laura (relishing Bill’s homemade gnocchi and pesto) Jo, Laura and Gary Our wedding morning some of our wedding…
Laura’s passing
The love of my life has gone. Her suffering has ended, but the hole she leaves in my life is so vast and I am so exhausted and in pain that I have been unable to write or be in touch these past few days. People have called and emailed and posted here the…
2.50am
Laura has gone.
Illuminated
As Laura lies gently breathing, I see occasional sparks of light like fireflies glowing around her head. Earlier this evening I saw an intense green white aura surrounding her face. It could be sitting too long in the semi-darkness with all the strange electrical paraphernalia of the hospital. But the night before we came to…
Kerry
Kerry and I are sitting vigil with Laura tonight. Kerry was Laura’s partner for 19 years. She has been a tireless support for both of us since Laura’s illness. Here she is with Laura when they went cycling around Central Park only two months ago.
Vigil
Laura has not woken up since this morning. She is heavily sedated now and breathing lightly. Her brother Barry, her former partner Kerry and I are here with her this evening. An hour ago, the very reverend Rebecca, who married us popped in to do a blessing. Laura is surrounded by love both present and…
I’m dying..
This morning Laura grasped my hand and said ‘I’m dying’. The doctors have come to the same conclusion. Her liver is failing and she is now very frail. She no longer eats and just occasionally will allow me to feed her small sips of juice. She can no longer focus her eyes to see…
Our anniversary
Today is our 3rd year anniversary and this is one of the first days since Laura was diagnosed with cancer that we have been apart. I’ve been in the hospital with Laura everyday, mostly 12-14 hours a day, except the last two days. I am at home now with a cold. The doctors don’t want anyone…
Little Miss Sunshine
Little Miss Sunshine is one of our favorite movies. ‘It is just one silly thing after another,’ as Laura describes it. Of course, Laura is the queen of silliness. As tired and weak as she now is, she still manages to tease the doctors. She has been matchmaking for the very handsome and charming Dr…
Maggie
Here is Laura with the hospital therapy dog Maggie a few days after we arrived at Memorial Sloan Kettering. The two of them smooched and cuddled for a blissed out 5 minutes. We’re hoping she’ll come back again soon.
Soul Love Forever 